Its been weeks i had a proper update.
since im just too free now, ill give you a proper one aye.

so anw, alot of problems occured in the house.
hmm. it aint easy to deal with old folks you know.
im afraid we might say something that will hurt her.
sigh. but when this thing gonna end. humhhh.
everyone in this house tried to understand you.
whatever you say, hurts us but we just keep mum about it.
you compare us with the others. you said they are good well behaved
but do you know what they are doing behind you?
you dont!!!!
whi have been with you all this while, helping you?
going through every shits with you?
MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not them or whoever else!
im just disapointedwith you. burrrrr.

im proud of myself because why???
because im able to go on without him.
trying bit by bit. eventhou my love is still for him,
hes still in my heart. yes, we are still in contact and still in good
terms.
we still share our stories together and still on the phone
like we used to.
but we dare not open up story about our past or
about patching up. yes. i wanna enjoy my life
with friends and especially my beloved cousins.
but still, you are in my heart akbar!!!!!!!! :)

yesterday i spent my whole day at yishun house.
CousinLala text me asking if i wanna tag along to yishun house.
i agreed and meet her up at j.e.
slack around and CousinGee cooked pulut kuning together
with rendang! bayek!!!!!
by 6+pm, CousinShafiq came back and together with him was
Zaibaktian, his wife and his three angels.
AAHHHH!!! ZAIBAKTIAN!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA.
right after magrib they started their karaoke session.
i cant believe i watched Zaibaktian sing right infront of me.
hahahha. kental! by 8+pm, Akbar and Fahmy came along.
and thats when 'berdegup jantung ku.'
i was so nervous.! and yes, i was asked to sing.
mengigil oi! but overall i had fun with dearly cousins,Fahmy,
Zaibaktian&family and of course Akbar.
we smiled, we talked and he whispered something to me.
hahaha. he sent me and CousinLala home.
we turned and smile again. :)

and im starting work on the 5th!

HA, thanks!
i miss my girls very much!
i need to meet them sooon! :)

with love,
NurMLN