well. its 11am now. am supposed to be at
work now but i skip. yep. down with flu and cough.
coming soon fever. thought of meeting the bf. i seriously want to
apologise to him right infront of his face. but am just tooo weak to go
out.
ive done a big big mistake yeasterday night. i admit its my fault.
but neh i wont say it out here.
i know hes still angry at me. i dont mind if he wanna scold me or what.
like ive said, my fault, my bad.
frankly, after yesterday's incident, idk if we are still together or not.

dear fir, im seriously sorry for what happened yesterday night.
i know this time round its hard for you to forgive me and trust me.
i swear i regret. even if you wish to leave me,i accept.
i know ive done a big mistake. a big one till its hard for you
to forgive me.
im super duper sorry.
i need you still and im sure you know that.
(:

im afraid to face him.
im afraid to pick up his calls.
im afraid to reply to his sms.
im afraid. im afraid. im afraid.

and wait. i guess not only fir is angry at me but mommy also angry at me.
pffft. yes yes i know ITS MY FAULT.
im sooorrryyyyy.


im on hiatus.

with love,
Nur Malina.