MAKE ME REAL

chated wit zai n dollie. tok bout some stuff. suddenly he pm me wit one msg. im not dat shocked. goink juz ok wit it but i did cry. yeah. n now my eyes are read. my lil sys did ask me wats wrong wit my eyes. oni 1 word i reply "notink". i dont care wateva he wannna sae. my wish fer xmas did cum true but oni bout e outink but not bout him.

those werds dat came out from his mouth is still in my mind. yup i did nid him beck. lyf is meaninkless w/o him. hes e one i cud joke wit. e one i share my prob wit. e one whu make me smile/laugh. e one whu accompany me at nite by tokink wit me. simply love him to bits. i wish i cud have him beck fer xmas but e ans is NOPE. i dun tink i can haf him beck. cos prolly hes in love wit other. haix. he saed he nids time. yea. i understand. he did sae tis to me "actually i nk patch ngn eu" but i noe he din mean it. erps. i mish him. take me beck in ur arms n hold me tightly. mish those tyme wen we r togeda. mish ur hugs. ur kisses. n esp i mish e person itself. hope u noe dat i mish eu damn much.

oh anw, ibu ask me to follow to aunt hs coz got kenduri but as usual me. im lazee. lata got many ppl la. but stayink at home oso borink. abg not at home. he went fer his fren pit. gerenti gerek kan. so prolly will b watchink vcd[s] or finish up my holidae hw. am still cryink now. lookink at e neoprints we took. haix. how i wish feeyi is here to comfort me. but he cant be here wit me now coz hes gone away. hurhur. kak lala, if u read tis, juz wanna tell ya dat we r in e same boat. but wateva it is we had to b strong rite systa?? love eu much. zai, thx fer beink dere fer me. i will try to ferget him. doll'iqah, thx fer ur concern. n hey im part of e SUPERSTARS. thx to fahmi. ok bye.